I work at this answering service. We mostly answer for doctors. It's just normal work, but I like to hope that I do more good than bad. I like to think that I'm a hero, even if that means that everyone else working alongside me is a hero too. At the same time I don't really think I am. I don't even believe in reality as it presents itself to me, nor do I believe I'll ever find out the true nature of reality and how I really can help others, if there even really are others out there. Also, I wonder if it's possible that our service does more good than bad somehow, though I don't think it really does. Also, if I had the chance I might move to something that pays more, and I do look for jobs. Even though I think I'll regret leaving my current job in the future.
I don't want working at my job meaning I'm a hero because I want to help others. It's more that believing that helps bring satisfaction during and after my day there. My desire to be a hero doesn't necessarily entail having a love interest or finding a unique path in the world and getting others to like me. It's more about believing that I can help others because I don't think I'm worth helping myself. I hope I don't cause damage being who I am. It might even be a purity thing, to avoid "sin" and maybe the idea of an afterlife of ease and comfort motivates my actions.
I don't really know who I am. I just know what I think I might be.
Sorry for all this BS. Sometimes all I want is to get is dinner with my family each night and go to sleep.