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I'm almost 25 in a few days, and I absolutely hate drinking. My friend once tricked me into drinking apple cider, and I thought I was drinking apple juice instead. The liquid burned the heck out of my mouth and throat. I don't want to imagine what that does to my stomach. The only drink I kinda liked was Voda mixed with Red Bull, though I read a while ago that it can actually be a dangerous mixture? It's not like I drank it in the past few years, but I'll definitely not touch it anymore now. But I'm also advised not to drink alcohol due to my stomach issues. But even if I didn't have that, I still wouldn't drink alcohol. I'd also rather spend my money on something more... lasting.

I check behind my window curtain before I go to sleep to make sure that not another mother spider is putting her nest there. Last summer my room was suddenly crawling with SO MANY baby spiders, I had to bug-bomb my room. It was horrifying. That, and before falling asleep, I just need to roll the back of my head around on the pillow to actually get exhausted. It's more of a strange urge though. I can't sleep without doing that at least for five minutes :P

There was unhealthy bacteria colonizing my stomach and bowels. I'm pretty sure it wasn't worms, otherwise the doctors would've told me. As far as I know there's nothing with my immune system, I do work at a hospital where there's things that could cause a immune compromise, but the past tests never revealed anything of the sort being present in me. I took medication to try and get rid of the bacteria- which took quite a while and dedication. I maybe fear that around the point I stopped with it, there might've been a small bit of bacteria left after all. And no worries! I don't think you're being insensitive, I just need a moment to try and explain this the best I can, is all. Yep! And I have a visit planned. Only problem, this doctor is located in Austria where my boyfriend lives (we discovered my health issues when I was on vacation there) so unfortunately I can't just go and visit whenever there are problems. The soonest I can go is between July 15-20th. I've looked for a similar doctor in my country, but I have yet to find one that doesn't try to convince me that I never had health issues to begin with (like, seriously?) I've considered going back to my strict diets again, so I think I'll just do that and see if that improves anything! I've had counseling in relation to my mom's illness because I knew it was going to get only worse. The problem is that my parents are too stubborn to actually take counseling for the sake of the family. Mom thinks everyone needs to tend to her worries and needs all day long because she's chronically ill and my dad thinks she's overreact and avoids counseling like crazy. Those two conflict like crazy, and often I have to get in between to even get them to calm down. It's getting a tad better since she's on antidepressants, but the atmosphere in the house is crazy. I constantly have to analyze any action or word my mom does or say, because she refuses to be direct and ask for something because she wants us to notice when she's in need for something. Really bad communication, and it makes me crazy having to analyze everything she does. I'll be honest, I really needed to hear that. Throughout the week I go to school and work for actual clients, in my weekends I work at the hospital and the rest of my little spare time I'm not sure what to do if it's not keeping an eye on my mother or trying to give attention to my friends and boyfriend (I fear people will leave me if I don't do this regularly) because I have so little time to do so as it is. I hardly keep any spare time for myself and I think that's slowly getting to me. I'm not sure how I'll loosen the reins and regain my strength, but I'll try to find out. I guess I'm pushing myself too much and it's time to try and take a step back.

Toy Story was the first movie I ever saw there! I remember it very fondly, my mother and brother accompanied me and after watching a movie we visit the MCdonalds (which is also the only time we'll ever visit that place :P) The slinky dog always reminded me of our own dachshund dog. Afterwards, it kinda became a tradition that whenever a Toy Story movie is released, we always go and watch it together like back in the old days :D

Before saying anything, I just want to mention the following will discuss the troubles of health issues. Just in case someone is not comfortable reading such things. ------ Alright, so, I'll try to keep this as short as possible. Knowing myself, that's really hard. But as the title says, I feel like I can't be strong anymore. And I'm not sure what to do anymore, or if I even have hope left of an improved future. When I was thirteen years old, I suddenly began having severe stomach and bowel pains. Knowing something was off, I went to the doctor, who concluded nothing was actually wrong because they couldn't find anything and sent me back home. This repeated over many years and I was forced to live with these torturous pains and nausea as part of my daily life. Surprisingly, I still did super well in classes and the whole issue, as present as it was, was pushed down the priority list. I began to think this was just in my head rather than reality. Otherwise they'd discover what the issue was, right? Until I was 23 years old and on vacation in Austria. One day I just dropped off the bike out of nowhere. No blackout, no warning, nothing. Just dropped like a sack. My boyfriend was super worried and told me something was seriously wrong while I was trying my best to climb back onto the bike and head home. It was impossible. And that should've been the warning to me, but I didn't realize it yet. Two days later I could do nothing. Absolutely nothing. I didn't have energy for nothing and even breathing made me exhausted to the bone. It was a very terrifying time. I just spent the next day in bed, not eating and not doing anything. To keep the following short; I was brought to a trustworthy alternative doctor who did a ton of tests on me, my blood, etc. She wanted to test the values in my blood and the condition of my stomach and bowels. A week later there was a pile of papers on the table explaining what was wrong with me. My stomach and bowels were pretty much destroyed on the inside. Invested by a bacterial overgrowth that claimed every nutrients and vitamins I got via food for itself, leaving none for my body. This apparently formed ten years ago, and only because it was there for so long was I progressively becoming worse. My blood values were in the worst possible state, and the doctor told me if I didn't throw my life around I wouldn't live to witness 2015 and I'd slip away during my sleep eventually. A gigantic and long lasting medical treatment was given to me, plus three diets. The food I was allowed to eat was countable on two hands. I also spent too many times hooked on blood infusions and the amount of medication I had to take was insane. But above all, I was relieved. Something was wrong. It wasn't just me imagining things. So I battled this head on. I turned everything around that same day. The following months were the worst of my life. I was a skeleton, suffered symptoms that addicts suffer from because of the sudden change of diet. But after half a year I could see the colors around me again, literally. And things were slowly improving. I had no stomach and bowel pain anymore and I can actually go outside without being terrified of pain hindering me. Right now, I'm doing really good. I work and go to school again without being exhausted or in pain and I just feel so much better in general. I was so overly happy and relieved I managed to overcome this. But then my mother's chronic illness took a turn to the worst. In just a few days, she went from a strong, hard working woman to someone who needs to depend on others for her to get around. My mother has Multiple Sclirose. She's had it as long as I live, but it never got worse until a year ago. Instead of looking after myself, I now have to take care of her. She's severely depressed and often reflects that onto me and my father, who are trying our best to be there for her when we can. And while I know she's depressed, I sometimes allow it to get the best of me and snap at her in return. And feel bad for it afterwards, because I always tell myself not to do that. Because the truth is she could be gone in a week if things go wrong again. Maybe in a month, a year. And this is terrifying me. I want to take care of my own health, because right now it is getting worse again, and the pains are returning, but she needs me too. Thing is, I feel I can't be strong anymore. All of this is overwhelming me and I'm ready to throw the towel into the ring. I don't know if I can go through another period of me having my own health issues again, to have all that pain and complications again. But if I do try my best to take care of myself, my mother won't be getting the attention and help she needs to get around. At this point I wonder if I can ever have a moment without struggles, pain (both mentally and physically) in my life, because I'm so exhausted. I don't think I can fight these situations anymore. Just in case anyone suspects this: I'm not suicidal, don't worry. I just wonder if anyone else has found themselves in a situation like this? And what have you done to keep yourself going? I feel I should get my joy and motivation out of the little things around me, but I can't even spot them anymore because all I do is worry. Sorry for the super long post, but it's taken me very long to even think of sharing this openly. And I thank everyone who read through this to the end. My apologies if this isn't the place to post something like this. I wasn't sure if it would belong in here or in Serious Discussions.

Hello Harvey! Welcome to the forums. Yeah, the GBA games are pretty expensive to get by nowadays, but I'm sure soon or later you'll find a good offer on those! It's just a matter of a lot of patience. They're worth waiting for though c: I hope you'll enjoy your stay here, and have a good day!

Looks like we've got a long-time lurker here. Welcome to the forums, Zu Chini. I hope you'll have a good time around here! And I do wholeheartedly agree: Fire Emblem is life! Also, swimming and tennis are awesome sports. Used to do that a lot myself back when daily life actually gave me some spare time for it :D

Greetings RichSlash! Oh man, the 'green units not joining despite having talked' situation. Believe me, this happened to me too at least a few times! But hey, now you know for any future encounters! I hope you'll enjoy your stay here! Have a good day! :D

Greetings and welcome, Barndo. Good to have you around and I hope you'll have a nice time around here! Regret not being into the series earlier? Well, you can also see it from the positive side: you still have a lot of amazing games ahead of you, right? :D

I keep reading things alike to: "Pushing characters to suddenly be gay or bi when they weren't before is stupid" But in regards to Frozen, Elsa never really showed her romantic interest/sexuality? So how is this pushing her to be something she isn't? Forgive me if I'm wrong, I've only seen Frozen once but I don't remember Elsa showing pure romantic interest in anyone. Of course, if a character were claimed to be of 'insert' sexuality before, and suddenly something else the next movie- I'd see the problem, but I fail to see it here. Also to think of her relationship with Anna as 'incestmuch' is pretty awful. Pure love for someone doesn't necessarily have to be romantic. Of course there's always people who would like it that way, naturally. But that's something else. Unfortunately I don't know much about Marvel nor Captain America, so I'll not comment on that.

There's a spreadsheet? Forgive me if I clearly missed it, but can someone link it to me? I can't seem to find it here. Also, I figured I'd get all my info and desired products into one post: Want list (order of priority): - 1x Playmat of the pixel lords. - 1x Tote bag of the pixel lords. My location: The Netherlands, Europe. I'm paying for the two products, plus the shipping needed to get it to me and I'll throw in extra for the effort of getting the items for me. I'll gladly discuss the amount with you personally. (Plus the fees mentioned in the post below!) There, now it's summarized instead of scattered over this topic. Hope that helps! :P

Just heard today that a former classmate and good friend of mine is actually visiting Japan around that time. We've talked about purchasing things for each other before if we ever visit Japan, so I went ahead to ask if he is up for purchasing something for a handful of people because he really wants to attend at least one of these events (if his schedule allows him). He's thinking about it, but I thought I'd throw this out here. If this were to happen it would be for 3, maybe 4 people only. I'll make sure to post here once I get a clear answer. Edit: Also for the location purposes. I'm from the Netherlands, Europe.

Maybe when the game pops up second-hand at the game store. Just maybe. Just to see what it's like. Aside that there's not much interest in it for me.

I'll gladly pay anyone extra (added to the actual products price and shipping costs) if they're up for looking around for a playmat and tote bag with the pixel lords on them for me. Though knowing how chaotic it was last time, and how people tended to take advantage of them- it's not required. I can always try and look around online myself aftwards to see if I can find anything. But it would be much appreciated and I'd pay you extra for the all the hard effort (just shoot me a message and we'll discuss the amount of that c: )

I've always been a big sucker for the Pixel Lords merch. So seeing that lovely playmat and tote bag makes me wish so badly that this stuff was easier available. I'd probably pick up that binder to store the SR cards in as well. Ah well. One can dream! Maybe they'll hit stores online or ebay at some point (for ridiculous prices) :P