Percivalé Posted March 18, 2010 Share Posted March 18, 2010 But my mom gave me the whole "I know I'm going to have to deal with a depressed kid if you don't make it" speech and it killed my confidence a little For some reason I feel like I'm going to cry, and when I swallow I feel like I'm going to break down, and I've already cried twice today because I haven't dealt as well with people this week, and my own instability is killing meee In other news I'm still excited to see the results. She was like, "Oh, your sightreading's really improved from last year!" Yeah, and so if you tell a junior-going-on-senior that and decide not to give them a chance on their last year then that is shit. :x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Soviet Gregor Posted March 18, 2010 Share Posted March 18, 2010 I'm sure you'll get it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
riariadne Posted March 18, 2010 Share Posted March 18, 2010 GO BIZZ GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO You'll make it, dun worry. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Percivalé Posted March 18, 2010 Author Share Posted March 18, 2010 Honestly, you guys, I didn't think I'd feel this terrible... I feel horrible. I'm not going to be able to get any sleep at all. ;_; Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Emeraldfox Posted March 18, 2010 Share Posted March 18, 2010 Drink warm milk. And eat cheese. Or sweet tea from Snapple. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shuuda Posted March 18, 2010 Share Posted March 18, 2010 Chin up and what not. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Meteor Posted March 18, 2010 Share Posted March 18, 2010 For those of us who don't read your blog, what are you auditioning for? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shroudening Posted March 18, 2010 Share Posted March 18, 2010 Drink warm milk. And eat cheese. Or pink lemonade from Snapple. Fix'd What kind of audition is it? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ansem Posted March 18, 2010 Share Posted March 18, 2010 Hope you made it Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Le Communard Posted March 18, 2010 Share Posted March 18, 2010 When you ain’t got no gig and you got no money and you ain’t got no woman all you gotta’ do is wh-hail them Blues. Tell the world ‘bout yo’ troubles in call-and-response Iambic Pentameter, preferably with a clever Ironic Twist. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dracohon Posted March 18, 2010 Share Posted March 18, 2010 But my mom gave me the whole "I know I'm going to have to deal with a depressed kid if you don't make it" speech and it killed my confidence a little What!? Why the hell would she do that? But don't worry, I'm sure you did awesome! :) B) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Squidorsky Posted March 18, 2010 Share Posted March 18, 2010 Prepare for a bit of a rant but hopefully it helps... I am a junior in high school and I want to audition for a college scholarship under piano and violin ( Haven't decided which i'll major in yet). Course my problem is that i can't sight read very well on the piano ( I suck at the bass clef) and on violin I just started a little over a year ago...( Don't get me wrong though, my violin teacher and many others have said how i'm progressing with it remarkably fast, so yeah...i don't suck...i'm not that great either). I get overwhelmed with the above mentioned audition because i always think i won't get good enough to be able to do it. I get overwhelmed when i simply watch animes like nodame cantabile or La corda d'oro. I feel like i'm going to die each time i perform... So i can fully understand what you are going through...mostly. I don't know if this applies to you but, despite all of this i LOVE music. I want to play it though i'm no Frederic chopin or Vanessa mae. Regardless of the performances and the hours of practice i always try to remember why i started all this and why i love it. So basically long story short, Just try to relax and i'm sure that your dreams and passion will be realized for the hours of practice and blood sweat and tears ( Figuratively) that you put towards this. (Maybe that was lame and cliched but i hope that helped...) Music is a tough field, between playing an instrument or singing in choir, it's filled with lots of competition and LOTS of anxiety. Just trust in yourself and your skills and never lose sight of your passion (Which i assume to be choir) As everyone else has been saying, i'm sure you did great! -Hyrulian man- Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Percivalé Posted March 19, 2010 Author Share Posted March 19, 2010 Music is a tough field, between playing an instrument or singing in choir, it's filled with lots of competition and LOTS of anxiety. Just trust in yourself and your skills and never lose sight of your passion (Which i assume to be choir) Yes, you are correct! I have really unstable nerves and I break down before any audition in anything And although I've obviously improved, I still have the worst inferiority complex that's derived from my time as a child. And it kills me. Right now I feel like crying again But yeah for those of you asking I auditioned for my school's chamber choir today which is basically honors choir Music is really hard, I know that, and I understand everything that you mean! (Music animes :D) Albeit at the same time it becomes such a passion that you cannot hide. Sigh Someday it will drive me to insanity though I'll become one of those people Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fayt Zelpher Posted March 19, 2010 Share Posted March 19, 2010 Yes, you are correct! I have really unstable nerves and I break down before any audition in anything And although I've obviously improved, I still have the worst inferiority complex that's derived from my time as a child. And it kills me. Right now I feel like crying again But yeah for those of you asking I auditioned for my school's chamber choir today which is basically honors choir It's okay if you want to cry. Just remember that we're all here to back you up, and that we all know that you'll do really well with the auditions. Sometimes I just need to cry as well, and I'm an 18 year old guy. So don't feel bad about it. Okay? :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Percivalé Posted March 19, 2010 Author Share Posted March 19, 2010 It's okay if you want to cry. Just remember that we're all here to back you up, and that we all know that you'll do really well with the auditions. Sometimes I just need to cry as well, and I'm an 18 year old guy. So don't feel bad about it. Okay? :) I probably will cry... And not be able to sleep tonight Or over the weekend ;____;;; Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fayt Zelpher Posted March 19, 2010 Share Posted March 19, 2010 I probably will cry... And not be able to sleep tonight Or over the weekend ;____;;; It's okay. You'll probably feel a lot better after you do. Just don't hold it in anymore - once you let it out, you'll feel a lot better. Trust me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Percivalé Posted March 19, 2010 Author Share Posted March 19, 2010 It's okay. You'll probably feel a lot better after you do. Just don't hold it in anymore - once you let it out, you'll feel a lot better. Trust me. Oh, I'm like the world's expert in tears :D I think I've been worrying my teachers by crying more at school lately; I guess it's the stress that's been doing it? I don't normally cry when I'm genuinely sad, really. Sometimes I cry just to cry. Or when I'm happy, or overly nervous, or overly excited, or exultantly euphoric, or scared. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fayt Zelpher Posted March 19, 2010 Share Posted March 19, 2010 Oh, I'm like the world's expert in tears :D I think I've been worrying my teachers by crying more at school lately; I guess it's the stress that's been doing it? I don't normally cry when I'm genuinely sad, really. Sometimes I cry just to cry. Or when I'm happy, or overly nervous, or overly excited, or exultantly euphoric, or scared. It's okay. Just let it all out. There's no need to hold anything in. We're here to help. And I don't know if these words are going to mean anything, but I've been through very hard times myself, with no one to turn to, not even my parents or family. It was like H**l, but even worse. I wanted to cry all the time back in 9th grade. So yeah, I can't say that I know what you're going through, but it's okay if you want to talk about it. Sometimes talking about it makes you feel better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shroudening Posted March 19, 2010 Share Posted March 19, 2010 Oh, I'm like the world's expert in tears :D I think I've been worrying my teachers by crying more at school lately; I guess it's the stress that's been doing it? I don't normally cry when I'm genuinely sad, really. Sometimes I cry just to cry. Or when I'm happy, or overly nervous, or overly excited, or exultantly euphoric, or scared. If it's really getting to you, try meditating/clearing your mind of thought, or just listening to calm music. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Percivalé Posted March 19, 2010 Author Share Posted March 19, 2010 It's okay. Just let it all out. There's no need to hold anything in. We're here to help. And I don't know if these words are going to mean anything, but I've been through very hard times myself, with no one to turn to, not even my parents or family. It was like H**l, but even worse. I wanted to cry all the time back in 9th grade. So yeah, I can't say that I know what you're going through, but it's okay if you want to talk about it. Sometimes talking about it makes you feel better. I have a communication problem Therefore I started out school with very little friends and very little contact with other people. Therefore, I never learned how to act around others, so sometimes and without being able to help it, I get awkward at conversation and sometimes almost annoying. I don't mean to be 'awkward', you see, and no one really understands when I talk about it; they call me melodramatic for it. People talked about me a lot and I didn't even know... but I digress. So I think it could be the root of why I'm so emotional Or maybe it's just me? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Le Communard Posted March 19, 2010 Share Posted March 19, 2010 Sigh Someday it will drive me to insanity though I'll become one of those people Sorry: I'm afraid Dive Bars really only hire Jazz Pianists and bad Singer/Songwriters, so you'll never be one of those. Choral Musicians just just can't sink that low. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fayt Zelpher Posted March 19, 2010 Share Posted March 19, 2010 I have a communication problem Therefore I started out school with very little friends and very little contact with other people. Therefore, I never learned how to act around people, so sometimes and without being able to help it, I get awkward at conversation and sometimes almost annoying. People talked about me a lot and I didn't even know... but I digress. I don't mean to be 'awkward', you see, and no one really understands when I talk about it So I think it could be the root of why I'm so emotional Or maybe it's just me? No, I think that we may be very much alike if your problem is anything like mine. Everything you said applies to me very well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shroudening Posted March 19, 2010 Share Posted March 19, 2010 No, I think that we may be very much alike if your problem is anything like mine. Everything you said applies to me very well. Same here. I feel like an outcast everywhere I go. I have friends, but honestly, they never talk to me about anything. I'm constantly secluded from their discussions. I'm also unusually annoying at times, and easy to anger. Social life seems to come so easy to some people, and really hard for others. A lot of us feel just like you in that sense. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
messy mike Posted March 19, 2010 Share Posted March 19, 2010 Don't worry about it Bizz. I'm pretty confident you got it if your director was that compliment-happy. Especially since sightreading is one of the harder things to master in choral music, especially compared to instrumental music. If you're told to play an E on the piano, that's entirely natural as soon as you learn which keys are which. But being told to sing an E? That's not as easy to just whip out of thin air. So bravo. That being said, as hard as it is, try not to obsess about it. Nothing you can do now will change the outcome and things will fall as they will, so the best thing to do is to go about your business as normally as possible until then. I don't think you have anything to worry about though. Just my two cents. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fayt Zelpher Posted March 19, 2010 Share Posted March 19, 2010 Same here. I feel like an outcast everywhere I go. I have friends, but honestly, they never talk to me about anything. I'm constantly secluded from their discussions. I'm also unusually annoying at times, and easy to anger. Social life seems to come so easy to some people, and really hard for others. A lot of us feel just like you in that sense. I don't think I'm so different from you either. Even when I try to be nice, it never comes out right, and it's really frustrating. So yeah, you're not alone in that either. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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