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RLR_FYE

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  1. Picture this. its 2018 you are filling out a hosptial form. To your amazement not only are there 10 different gender identities, you can choose froE but you can choose all 10 if you want. I turn the page and my heart sinks…. ”If mixed race pick your dominant race” Im alll for gender inclusion truly but when a state willfully refuses to let s mixed kid select two boxes it’s systemic racism against mixed kids. You are pointing so hard at Trump and you leave a paper trail of Democrat made forms that literally act as though Loving vs Virginia never happened. explain to this newly naturalized US citizen who could not vote because there was no non racist option?. and please Do try harder than saying republicans openly associate with Nazis as II would be killed at those rallies for tainting the master race. Why should I vote for a party that behaves as though I don’t exist because the other literally acknowledges my exiisyance with murderer as brutal as it is… I mean… barely 50 years guys. i shouldn’t feel like my existence ion government forms is outlawed. that’s a double standard I won’t stand for. rememebr the scenario is pick 10 for trans and pick 1 for mixed. How would you vote in my shoes? As bad as it sounds being killed at a white supremecist rally beats being forced to pick white because your skin isn’t dark enough and your eyes aren’t slanted enough. I mean murder is a small price to pay to exist n the eyes of a white surpemcist. Why shouldn’t I support trump andnnd republicans? At least I tick both boxes with them. Never underestimate the psychology of belonging . all I ask guys is before you start saying someone can be 10 genders can we agree on someone being two races? PS I apologize for any typos…. ininheritrd stubby thumbs a touch keyboard world. I
  2. In 2017, I had a manic episode. My father, who is a businessman, turned an empty warehouse into a makeshift mental hospital privately hiring a small staff of medical aids and a doctor and nursed me back to health. When the doctor said I was well, my father left me in the care of his personal assistant to nurse me back to healththe warehouse after the doctor was done to make sure I transitioned back into regular life… except what happened next was his assistant went rogue and decided I was still sick and locked me in the room that had served as the padded wall room for my recover. My father’s assistant was a mentor figure to me and heavily influenced my Christian faith growing up.and inspired me to be a better human being and helped to reconcile many negative experiences I had with Christians as a gay man. So to say that that this was just some business assistant who went on a power trip is not the case here. This is a betrayal by a man who I considered a brother in every sense of the word. Locked in a room against my will, I cried out to God and received and answer to my prayer that sent chills down my spine. “Just change sides” The voice said. At this point, I felt an icy touch on my body and instinctively I knew it was Satan. Satan began to share w it h me secrets about God that God didn’t want me to know. His tyranny , arrogance, and ego. He told me that I’ve seen enough failures in the church to know that Christianity was a joke and I should join the winning team. He told me that if I worshipped him he would give me dark powers beyond my wildest dreams. I replied and told him that I know my Bible and I know what the cost of worshipping Satan is: going to hell. Satan replied with a very different offer. He began to share with me the process for becoming an anti-Christ candidate. And called me to his high priesthood. I said no again So Satan came at me a third time with an offer that was too good no to refuse. He struck a deal that he would show me his power without having to worship him and called it an “internship”. I would receive a taste of his power without having to worship him. So in the following day when I was let out of my room for a drink of water, the water began to change color in my cup and I began to taste these fruity drinks with no alcoholic aftertaste but all the effects of alcohol. I became intoxicated without realizing it and so Satan reproduced the old miracle of Water into wine. When I sobered up, Satan asked me again if I wanted to worship him and I said no. The next few days Satan would appear to me at random times and begin to share more “secrets” about God to me. When I was thrown into the locked room again he told me. “Paul and Silas praised God and the walls of their prison came crashing down. Worship me and I will perform the same miracle.” I again said no and reminded him that hell is not worth being physically free. The next few days I began having people visit me. I had brother in law beat me unconscious with a baseball bat, I had my best friend Kyle suck on my penis and I had other people doing strange and unusual things all Christian. I saw my brother in law being taken out of the warehouse in handcuffs. I came to the realization that Satan had sent demons disguised as Christians I know to torment me and the cops that never were in the warehouse were probably angels taking the demon out of the warehouse since after the “arrest” My. Either in law never did anymore things to me like that. After this, Satan appeared to me a third time and began to fill me with demons overwhelming my mind. I experienced a case of real amnesia forgetting who I was and where I was. Then as my memory began to “return”, I remembered my mother and father were no longer divorced. I beloved a fake utipion life for myself where my life went in a different direction because my mother and father were happily married After a day of this delusion, my memory was restored and with it, pain and anguish becauSe the wonderful life I had lived had evaporated. It was then that Satan made his move. He told me “Now you understand what you lost because of God. Now you understand why you should worship me. Worship me and I will make it so your frothed and father never left each other.” And I said no but one thing about words is that, at the end of the day Satan is the God of all lies and even though I said no, my heart faltered and Satan called me out for it. He told me there was no internship that I had been worshipping him the entire time and that I would pay for my “blasphemy” against him. From here, I was put through a tortured hat is impossible to describe but very real. People don’t understand that when it comes to highs, there is not a single drug on Earth that beats the physical euphoria of possession by legion. The torture is real but so is the physical pleasure. Your spirit aches while your body cries out in ecstasy. During this time I begged for a Bible and was told I didn’t need one. That I didn’t read it anyways and that there were other ways to practice my faith without one. My torment continued for months and Satan had broken me completely. I cried out in worship hoping he would stop. He didn’t. He would remind me over and over again about how the church had screwed me over and over again and for the final time they denied me a Bible when I needed it most and for that I was weak and pathetic for even trying to be a Christian. Then one day something very unexpected happened, I was visited by a different spirit neither Angel nor Demon but rather my dead Uncle Thomas who tied his spirit around my feet and stitched himself to me as Peter Pans shadow was sewn to his feet by Wendy. Thomas explained to me that Satan could not take my soul despite my reasons for one very simple reason. When I was a teenager I almost took my life and my best friend Kyle was there for me in a way that prevented such an event. When I was 16 I made a pledge to repay him fo his kindness and from there I spent the next 10 years burdened with a life debt I could never repay. One day I talked to Kyle about it and he and he didn’t want me owing him his life and I told him I made a vow before God and I can’t break that and he said that released me. Thomas explained to me that when someone releases someone from a binding agreement with God it creates a new kind of spiritual atmosphere. No human being can release you from a vow you made to God but if they do, they have sown a powerful seed that can be harvested at any time by God. Kyle’s act of kindness allowed God to intervene in the situation by sending my Uncle Thomas to protect me from Satan’s wrath. When you truly pledge your life to someone, your life is no longer your own. It is spoken for by someone else so even though I did cave into Satan’s temptations and tortured, Satan cannot legally torture what he does not own. From here I was released but the trauma of my torture still haunts me to this day. Id love to hear your thoughts on this and also if you have an intense spiritual experience of your own to share please do.
  3. Fair enough. At this point upon much self reflection I’m embracing a new gender identity. I don’t believe in gender be it cis or trans so why would I have one? Agender feels like a good fit because I don’t really consider myself or anyone else male or female. I consider them speaking spirits in physical vessels and spirits have no gender.
  4. If they talk I will hear them out but if it was me, I would address the person directly. not spend 10 years talking smack.
  5. Oh I know all about quiet prejudice. I’m a mixed kid. You’d be surprised the things I deem racist because you would likely adamantly disagree with me and that disagreement in turn allows the behavior to continue. But say the prejudice was violence, then no I still stand by rumors being worse even up to being lynched. The negative impact that rumors have on mental health is assault on the mind. As someone who is bipolar and has their friends and families worried I could go manic from this because it’s combining with personal issues I am struggling with at the moment. You do NOT want to go through mania. I would more quickly kill someone than make them manic. It is a fate worse than death to me. So with that logic in mind, I stand by rumors being worse than prejudices.
  6. There’s never an excuse for not asking someone to their face when you can. You can call it self righteousness or Pride if you like but I may have owed an apology before the rumor, but after? No, now the onus is on them. If someone beat you up for calling them a name, your apology is paid for in blood and bruises. In the Yakuza, you cut off a finger to show you’re sorry. My apology is paid for.
  7. I’ve dealt with prejudice. I’ve dealt with rumors. Both hurt but the difference between fighting something you can see and soemthing you don’t know about is what makes rumors so evil to me. Nope this person explicitly flaunted and went on about how they don’t trust social media with their real name. They went by Cthulhu Elder on Facebook at some point. So unless they self identified as a tentacle monster from an HP Lovecraft Horror novel on the way to being trans, then no I had no way of knowing their latest name was a trans identity. I will not apologize to someone who spread lies about me. I’m anLGBT Christian. Trust me I fucking know. The pain of prejudice never hurt me as much as rumors ever could. Okay wtf? Did you read the OP. They CLAIMED I insisted. I didn’t insist I just didn’t know. They never told me or communicated this with me in any way. They just ran their mouth. what part of I didn’t know do you not understand? The fact that you cite my faith as a reason you think I’m a bigot tips your hand as a militant atheist who willfully believes that your mind has been enlightened and freed from the shackles of religion. From what I can gather, you d actually get along better with Christian’s if you actually talked. I mean assuming you’re better than others is per the course for you militant atheist types. As I referenced earlier I am an LGBT Christian so your assumptions that I would turn a blind eye to the suffering of my own community is. Blatant straight bashing. You assumed the best sexual orientation to undermine my opinion. So who here is the bigot exactly? No my issue is you can fight what you see in a slur but you cannot fight what you don’t see in a rumor. It is the invisibility of rumors that makes them so much more evil than prejudice and the Bible agrees with me on that to the point that there is literally nothing more that God hates than a gossip.
  8. So I found out someone has been saying to people for years that I am transphobic because I insisted on calling them by their old name. The problem with this claim is they have a before they were trans they had a reputation for making fake names for themselves because the they didn’t want their actual name on facebook. So my question to on is… how the heck was I supposed to know? So many people rant about screwed up all the sins of prejudice are. The big bad four of homophobia, transphobia, sexism and racism. But I disagree. Those situations are wrong but they are not the worst. In my opinion what’s fat worse is a gossip and a rumor spreader. The mean things people say to your face hurt but a stab in the front is always better than a stab in the back which is what rumors are. I would rather be called a slur than have someone spread nasty malicious rumor sbehind my back. As a Christian the Bible is very clear on the subject of gossip and rumors and slander. There’s a special place in hell reserved for them. So my religious values are at odds with secular values which say that being prejudiced is worse. I disagree.
  9. https://m.facebook.com/groups/1655837101451615?group_view_referrer=search Im recruiting for a Randomized Big Brother Online Reality Game (ORG) on Facebook. Randomized means there aren’t any challenges to determine who wins but a roost randomizer that selects the “winner” every round. The twist for this game is that players can spend an in game currency called pips to t manipulate the randomizer in their favor. Check put the Facebook group if you’re interested.
  10. I had a similar situation with Arthur and speed the one playthrough I used him to the end. On Birthright, Kaze can go Cavalier which is invaluable and it gives him 10% more strength growth
  11. It’s called RNG. His strength growth is low but it’s not THAT low. My Niles was obscenely defense and Magic blessed and consequently, Nosferatu tanks very well but does that mean I’m heart sealing Niles in a regular playthrough because of this one experience? Statistically speaking very unlikely.
  12. Even an RNG screwed Kaze can do SOMETHING. That’s entirely the point. Besides, if Elise as Wyvern Knoght can hurt things with a bronze axe, I think you can manage with Kaze’s Strength issues. But even if Kaze does 0 damage. In a Heart Seal playthrouh he is arguably worse because of Dwordlock but he can still do damage on player phase via Poison Strine and then he can debuff using Seal Stength. That is as good as hidden weapons can do with the Strength Stat. As for Nile’s… he’s been a shockingly potent Dark Mage.
  13. Poison Strike and Seal Strength give him a really strong player phase. Sure he’s not a tank but the Kodachi is a low competition weapon with my team (Camilla has Tomes and Laslow and Corrin have Hidden Weapons) he can debuff dangerous enemies from a distance and debuffing Strength can be a great asset!
  14. Because of Arthur dying I was able to use Kaze who’s skill pool is simply bonkers for Nohr.
  15. It is implied that I have access to the Ghostly Gold DLC in a Heart Seal Run for the cash to buy heart seals and extra gear. A paralogue that offers Gold is therefore redundant.
  16. I’m playing a Heart Seal run of Fire Emblem Fates Conquest and I played the Dwyer Paralogue and got lots of good level ups!… And then Arthur dies… I had a choice to make. Save my admittedly very useful Arthur Cavalier or… just say screw it and let him lie. I ultimately decided to let him push daisies. Since Child Units are forbidden and Percy’s Paralogue doesn’t offer any decent rewards, my reasoning was that the minimum loss was in letting Arthur die. Now Silas is back in the rotation! Here we go!
  17. It pays to train up units on Lyn Mode but my computer got stolen and all my hard work to RNG manipulate a good Lyn Mode went down the drain. I was wondering if anyone with rom hacking experience would be able to create the following save for me: Hector Hard Mode Unlocked (But with the Rank Data for Hector Hard Mode Blank. I prefer it that way for S Rank attempts) And a Lyn Mode that’s on Chapter 10 with the following modifications Lyn Level 6 +5 to all base stats with a Mani Katti, Lancereaver, Angelic Robe and an extra Fell Contract in her inventory. Kent, Sain, and Florina Level 7 with +6 to all stats.-Kent Rank C in Seords and D in Lances and Sain Rank D in Swords and C in Lances. Will Level 5 +3 to all Stats Dorcas Level 6 +3 to all Stats Erk Level 4 +3 to all Stats Serra Level 3 +2 to all Stats Rath-Level 9 +2 to all Stats and a B in Bows Matthew Level 4 +2 to all Stats Lucius-Level 6 +3 to all Stats Nils-Level 3- +2 to all Stats Wallace- Level 1 Promoted +8 to all Stats I can typically train up everyone to this level at this point of Chapter 10 without boss abuse (Minus Wallace who I just want to see get some proper training in.) The-idea is that I manipulated the level ups such that every level up was a perfect level up. This allows me to play the game under the most ideal setting possible within the parameters of the game. Obviously I want the characters other than Lyn to come with some kind of gear so they can fight. And the Fell Contract is just there to ensure that you get the White Gem in Hector Hard Mode.
  18. Huh… I stand corrected. I guess there is a way provided you didn’t pick the fighter talent and go marry Hayato lol.
  19. So in Birthright, these two units cannot exist in the same playthrough because both require a different wife for Jakob. To get Wyvern Shigure, you must marry Jakob to Azura but for Sakura to get what, in my opinion is her best class (Her personal skill stacks nicely with demoiselle and inspiration) she needs to marry Jakob also. The question is which will be more useful? Shigure can be gotten way earlier than Scarlet with support grinding and Jakob can pass down Aegis for a skill% chance to not swear under your breath when you misplace your flier. On the other hand, A Rank Staves and Mobility on Sakura! What should I do?
  20. Okay so… I’m arena grinding my Fiora on the chapter where you get Ninian and she is at this point her statistically average self as is per the effect of the Tony mode patch which is essentially a Fixed Mode for FE7: Blazing Sword. However upon approaching level 18, something bizarre happens… all of her stats jump to 20 except luck which jumped to 29… Wtf just happened? Is there a more updated version of Tony Mode that doesn’t have this issue?
  21. Damn Mekkah really dropped a hammer on us just when we thought it was all over. That last bit about him refusing to work with anyone who works with Mangs is definitely making a statement. Not going to lie I’m a little heartbroken this dynamic duo won’t be collaborating anytime soon. Those Mangs and Mekkah let’s plays are fantastic.
  22. Tony Mode, AKA Average Stats Patch ensures that each unit reaches their statistical averages. Afa’s drops increase growth rates but does the average stat calculator factor that into account?
  23. Tori Nichols from Cobra Kai finally got the dues her character deserved in Season 4. In her feud with Sam LaRusso, she had some traits that make her sympathetic. She has a sick mother and she lives struggling financially while Sam grew up wealthy and got everything she wanted. Secondly, it’s not like Sam didn’t have a role to play in their feud what with accusing her of stealing her mom’s wallet right out of the gate and of course, kissing Miguel when he was dating Tori… Unfortunately that petty feud escalated far too quickly for anyone to think Tori was anything but a psychopath. Yeah we are supposed to feel concern an sympathy for Tori being brainwashed by John Kreese because her impoverished background played right into their hands but… Violently assaulting someone with a weapon because they kissed your boyfriend… TWICE? By the end of Season 3, you REALLY want to feel bad for Tori but the writers have gone the route of making her an obsessive psychopathic killer out to get Sam. The first time you could say, okay Tori is a hothead but she was angry and we all do stupid things while we are angry but jeleordizing your chance to support your family at the end of Season 3 by continuing to pick fights with this person? Come on! So I go into season 4 wondering how else my least favorite character could be more crazy and instead, they give her a compelling character arch where Amanda LaRusso chips away at her tough facade with kindness. And also, there’s that scene at the end where she sees Terry Silver bribe a judge and is clearly troubled setting up a path of redemption for Tori. I gotta give props to the writers for giving mg Tori’s role the much needed layer of complexity it deserves this season of Cobra Kai. Redeeming the irredeemable is very difficult to pull off.
  24. So I don’t have any experience hacking roms but I’ve always wondered especially after playing Path of Radiance, is there a way to add the feature where you can show the entire enemy threat range stay by selecting Enemy Units like the newer Fire Emblem Titles have? I know this is technically and issue for Binding blade and Sacred Stones but it might be a little bit much for me to ask about three patches so I decided to go with one and see if it’s possible at least. I feel like this minor change would greatly improve the quality of life of the game.
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