You should kick back on the drugs. Seems like an obvious choice that can be easier said than done. If you have a loss of passion as you say, I'd bank a combination of drugs and social factors (if that is at play) might be an issue indeed. Random tidbit of unsolicited advice though: don't be ashamed or afraid of who you are, it can lead to a lot of unnecessary self loathing and loosing touch with yourself. To answer your question though, I'm partial to marksmanship and archery. Reading has been a mainstay of mine for sometime, but less so recently. Just picked up assassins apprentice (no relationship to my avatar promise), and I'm hoping it lives up to the hype.