Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 (edited) u ever think about how ugly you are and get sad and then ur like "i want to kill myself bc i might be reborn w a prettier face" Spoiler Spoiler IS IT JUST ME whenever i see myself in the mirror or remember how ugly i am in public it seriously depresses me, like wow everyone around me is so pretty or at least semi-confident in their looks or is good at make-up and meanwhile i look like absolute shit during freshman year i remember flipping through past yearbooks and saying to my journalism friends in awe, "wow i hope im as pretty as all of these girls when im a senior" and now my friends have all matured and look really gorgeous and amazing and im really not lmao and i can't vent my frustrations to my friends bc they're like "oh don't say that, you're not ugly" and i know they have good intentions but it makes me even more self-conscious about my face and more upset. i don't want them to help me feel better, i just want to rant about how ugly i am every time i wake up and catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror i want to cry bc i don't like going out knowing how ugly i am and having to make eye contact with people who i know don't want to look at me i just want to wear a mask all the time i am perpetually questioning why i even have so many friends irl, like really why would they want to associate w someone so repulsive i don't like other people taking photos with me even in the background and for every physical group photo i have with my friends i take a sharpie and scribble my face out people always push the narrative that everyone has imperfections but it feels like i have ALL the imperfections "it doesn't matter whether you're beautiful on the outside as long as you're beautiful on the inside" my ass, at the point where i am it's more like it doesn't matter how beautiful i am on the inside bc im too ugly on the outside for it to matter before me i didn't even think it were possible for someone to be so revolting but here i am, the eighth wonder of the world to top it off my body is horribly proportioned and similarly ugly i wish i were prettier but i'm stuck with this hideous monstrosity for the rest of my life beoseo nago sipeo i sesangeun geojitmaaaaal i think im ugly, and nobody wants to love me Edited March 20, 2018 by evanesce stan luna Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChefGuevara Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 Nah you're def not alone in that, i used to feel that way a lot, but I've...kind of moved past it? It's hard to gauge closure, or any emotion for that matter. I wish I knew what to tell you, other than that I hope you can feel better soon. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sylveonzoroark Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 (edited) KIM I AM GOING TO FIGHT YOU okay so you may think you're ugly or repulsive, but try looking at yourself as if you were someone else. would you think that she's ugly? if so, would you really be so repulsed that you wouldn't want to associate with her? what if a friend had the same face? if you pass by someone 'ugly' in public, would you really notice or think that much about them? even if some rando thinks you're ugly, they're even more irrelevant than salty knetz on nate. I guess what I'm trying to say is you're being way too hard on yourself. please don't compare yourself to others or call yourself hideous =( it's really not healthy... please be kind to yourself like you would be kind to a friend. you don't deserve to be put down so much, least of all by yourself ngl i can't really talk because i also hate taking photos and want to hide my face every time i'm in public, but it's better if you just ignore everyone and pretend to have confidence in yourself. this might not be what you want to hear, but i think you're physically pretty, and i also think that what you're like on the inside matters very much in people's perception of your appearance an ugly person with a beautiful personality is a thousand times prettier than a beautiful person with an ugly personality Edited March 20, 2018 by sylveonzoroark Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 how is it possible for both of them to be so cute, everyone is bowing down for the birthday gifts yanchen's fans sent and zhengting is just to the left clapping like a seal by himself and confessing his love for yanchen and yanchen gives him a handshake while tellin zhengting that he loves him too everything about this is so wholesome the entire video for yanchens birthday was adorable but this was probably my favourite part ;_; sigh am i stuck 1 hour ago, ChefGuevara said: Nah you're def not alone in that, i used to feel that way a lot, but I've...kind of moved past it? It's hard to gauge closure, or any emotion for that matter. I wish I knew what to tell you, other than that I hope you can feel better soon. 1 hour ago, sylveonzoroark said: KIM I AM GOING TO FIGHT YOU ;_; gosh thanks guys sry for venting here it's a lot but i really appreciate your advice sylv ur questions make a lot of sense i GUESS it's just hard to put myself in that mindset i think. also if u also dislike ur face i hope u take your own words to heart thank u guys Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChefGuevara Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 Nah don't apologize for venting, i can say with absolute certainty that it's healthy and good Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChefGuevara Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 Nah don't apologize for venting, i can say with absolute certainty that it's healthy and good Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sylveonzoroark Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 yes, venting is great 1 hour ago, evanesce said: ;_; gosh thanks guys sry for venting here it's a lot but i really appreciate your advice sylv ur questions make a lot of sense i GUESS it's just hard to put myself in that mindset i think. also if u also dislike ur face i hope u take your own words to heart thank u guys it was kinda hard for me to get into that mindset too, but I feel better now that I have Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 why have there been so many scandals recently Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 Spoiler wow i don’t like complimenting svt bc 10/13 members suck but they did THAT my only complaint abt the editing is how much they fiddled with their complexions lmao are mingyu and jun even mingyu and jun without their relative tanness woozi usually stands out for his pale skin but now every member looks almost the same as him also the8’s mullet still looks stupid as fuck Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sylveonzoroark Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 not the mullet is sm really debuting nct china and thailand this year Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sylveonzoroark Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 sm's plan to take over not only asia but also south america Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 what the fuck is nct vietnam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sylveonzoroark Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 their plan to take over ur heart Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 Spoiler lin yanjun's friendship w you zhangjing is my favourite bashful lin yanjun is my favourite Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sylveonzoroark Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 also stream dinner Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 1 minute ago, sylveonzoroark said: their plan to take over ur heart pls don't i already have enough on my hands with seventeen and super junior Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sylveonzoroark Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 also stream dinner Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 dinner was great i love suho's voice Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sylveonzoroark Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 i'm the staff happy 20100 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 1 minute ago, sylveonzoroark said: their plan to take over ur heart pls don't i already have enough on my hands with seventeen and super junior Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 merry 20100 me too probably Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sylveonzoroark Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 i'm the staff happy 20100 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 merry 20100 me too probably Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 Spoiler i can't believe zhangjing is the older of the two Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted March 20, 2018 Share Posted March 20, 2018 Spoiler idk if im zhangjing or nongnong Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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