Here, let me unconfuzzle you.
You said:
So...suicide is most usually considered to be chickening out from life. You said here that I will chicken out last minute...which, taking in what I said earlier, if I did suicide, I would be chickening out.
If I didn't suicide, it meant that I'm man enough to face life and in fact, not a chicken. So if I did suicide, I would have lost the dare and if I didn't, I would have won.
God, I suck at explaining things.