I need help

[Percivalé]

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

/

BK

It is true that love drives you insane

fuck personal satisfaction says:

Yes.

It is very true!

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

Yes

BK, I'm going to die

The emotional swings are traumatizing me

I go to school and I can't stand it even though I love it

Why did I have to be born like this

Why can't I just be normal

auuugh

My friends today noticed my hair getting thinner

fuck personal satisfaction says:

Dude

Being Normal

Is really lame

Don't do it.

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

Not /normal/

As in like

boring

fuck personal satisfaction says:

Also I have felt horrible today too and I don't really know why.

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

But like

actually socially functional

fuck personal satisfaction says:

OH

Then you just say

"Socially competent"

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

3:

fuck personal satisfaction says:

But nah that is kind of lame too

It is good to be a little socially competent

But not by a lot.

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

Well

I am a little

And have many friends

But there is still that gap that you can see

Between me and cough certain people

fuck personal satisfaction says:

Oh yeah

There's gaps between me and other people

Every fucking day!

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

Doesn't it hurt/drive you into a wall/make you slightly mentally insane?

Like to the point where you hear things and even the slightest mention of your name makes you turn around and it might not even be directed at you

fuck personal satisfaction says:

Well

No

But sometimes I am sad because later in life I will not have any memories of having wacky fun times with friends cuz I don't have wacky fun times and I don't have friends.

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

....

BK

I am sorry

But I think that I might

nreak down

break*

fuck personal satisfaction says:

Its alright.

If we were in person I would offer my shoulder to cry on

But I'm not

So you can take your sister's shoulder and when she has her inevitable "?!?!" reaction just be liek THIS IS PROPERTY OF BK

[Parrhesia]

...............?

[Percivalé]

The point is I'm insane, damn it. And it's getting worse

[Hero]

This was an MSN chat?

[BEST TRYNDAMERE PLAYER]

Well, I can answer your "love" question:

Yes, it can drive you insane at times. I was in a relationship with someone for 2 years and I'm not going to lie, it can really test your patience despite the pros of having one.

[BK-201]

O_O

[Percivalé]

This was an MSN chat?

Yes

and here is part two

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

Not in like that way though

But we talk now

It just hurts though

How much I messed up and how messed up I've made my life and nothing seems to forgive me for how I acted

It's like starting all over from infancy

fuck personal satisfaction says:

Yeah

That is pretty bad

I'm sorry.

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

It's okay

I think I went overboard

fuck personal satisfaction says:

(I don't know what you did so I can not personally judge)

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

(I acted like an idiot and never did anything for myself or bothered to make friends)

fuck personal satisfaction says:

Oh.

I never bother to make friends either

But I kind of generally don't relate to people on a very deep level.

I'm also not outgoing.

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

But I found out that I need people because without people I'm really, really lost and I know nothing

No one told me how to act or look or dress because I didn't think I needed people

So I didn't know how to do anything...

fuck personal satisfaction says:

You don't have to look or dress like anything BUT YOURSELF

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

So even though I was really school smart, I was dumb when people talked to me

fuck personal satisfaction says:

But acting yeah that is a problem area.

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

... sigh

I don't want

to suffer for another semester

fuck personal satisfaction says:

Hmm

I don't want to suffer

But I kind of enjoy school generally

Except for liek the first hour

But after that shit is generally smooth

~°∆°[[bizz] says:

I love school but third block ruins it D:

[BEST TRYNDAMERE PLAYER]

Are you sure it's wise to post full MSN convos of how crappy things are going on with your life atm? It's not the best thing to do.

But the answer to this question can easily be summed up:

You're going through a phase, you'll get over it.

[Parrhesia]

Everyone gets like this. You'll be over the hurdle in no time, man.

Even if it takes a while, by the time you're past it it won't matter, eh?

[Percivalé]

My life isn't crappy fyi

I am just confused~

[Percivalé]

Everyone gets like this. You'll be over the hurdle in no time, man.

Even if it takes a while, by the time you're past it it won't matter, eh?

I suppose so~

You're right, though

I know I'll eventually forget about it. Maybe not all the way, but I think it's just that I can't wait for next year

[Rei Rei]

tl;dr

[Defeatist Elitist]

There is quite a difference between social competency and conformity.

I feel I must state that quite clearly. I am, for the most part, quite a socially competent person, and I don't believe I conform to too many social norms. I have a decently sized core friend group, and a lot of other people outside it that I would consider friends as well.

So basically, what I'm intending to say is that social competency has little to do with conformity, and a lot to do with social competency.

You probably go to a big school, so it's quite possible that tons of people have no idea who you are. Use that to your advantage.

I was born with the disadvantage of living in a small community where everyone knew you from practically the day you were born, so change was rather difficult, especially with any significant speed.