Lance Masayoshi Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 No I said in both to remove me Just one said at any time and the other didn't You're contradicting yourself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pull My Devil Trigger Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 Kool story brah Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Breezy Kanzaki Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 I thought you didn't like my posts So why are you talking to me? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Knight Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 And we shall spam post all night long! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nobody Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 I was wondering if you would actually be able to reach 9000 today, but then I remembered it's still 22PM where you are. So yeah, it's happening Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PKLucas531 Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 oh are we doing this Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starman Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 WE GOT TWENTY DUDES HERE ONE OF THEM IS A GOOGLE BOT BUT WHATEVER Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LuxSpes Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 Oh yeah, I listened to Colony 9 (night) for the first time a few days ago. Really ambient. Love it That's one of the things I really like about the game's soundtrack. The fact that the songs changes between day and night changes the whole atmosphere of the track while keeping the same melody (except for one location, but that's excusable since it doesn't look at all like the same place when night falls) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nobody Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 (edited) I do believe if you don’t like things you leave for someplace you’ve never gone before I’m starting to wonder if my liking for brasilia was always stockholm syndrom. Everywhere else I go to, people feel more genuine and alive than in Brasilia. I feel like every great place i’ve been to, be it NYC, Vegas, Miami, Lisbon, Paris, Munich, Heidelberg, Santiago, Sao Paulo... people feel interesting, places feel great. In Brasilia, everything and everyone feels fake, as if I was in the truman show. As if they were NPCs designed to be the same other than physical appearence. Spending a single day in sao paulo, I see more interesting and alive places than i do in an entire year in Brasilia, and that’s also how I feel while traveling abroad. I look at people having fun on alive streets and wish I could be their friend. They look interesting. In Brasilia, I feel everyone who wasn’t one of my friends at some point is bland and boring. They have nothing to offer me. Obviously that’s ridiculous, but I do feel Brasilia lacks human warmth. It’s has the disadvantages of both a small and a big city. Everywhere you look, you see strangers acting exactly as you expected them to, same subjects, same looks, so empty. It’s weird, I feel as if literally everywhere in the world (that isn’t a massive shithole of course) was a better place. that’s of course just me blaming my failures on the place where I live. I do wish Brasilia had more of the perks of a big city, though, such as an awesome and lively downtown with unique people rather than our failed one that only has crackheads and prostitutes after 10pm also there are so many **** **** here, and a *** ** **** *** ***. It makes me feel inadequate, and sort of inferior, but they’re a dream compared to what we seem to have in Brasilia. editing this shit again because i’m now feeling absolutely terrible even if i felt nice through the day. Like, I feel completely worthless, as if no one will ever like me, or be attracted to me. I feel like a lesser human being. Unworth of affection and love. I feel like an absolute piece of trash and also an horrible person with terrible thoughts. Btw i think i might have lied to my psychiatrist about u know those bad kind of thoughts. Not the thoughts i hate myself for but you know the thoughts I have for hating myself. The sort of thoughts i said to myself i’d never have because u know there’s absolutely nothing i’m more scared of than death but like... im so worthless it hurts. I used to think that people who went through those thoughts did what they wanted, but since I started having them I know it’s not true. I should have told my psychiatrist the truth but I always tell myself those are not really s.... thought because you know, I’d never go through them, but what if one day I lose control and have a panic attack like my sister often does? Could i proceed with those thoughts? My parents don’t deserve to go through that. They already know what’s like to lose a child, and I assume losing one that you’ve raised and lived with for over 20 years is way worse than losing a newborn. It’s just that I just imagine how it’s like to not exist to not have to worry about stuff, etc but idk those thoughts and what’s really causing them hurt. I’m extremely scared of rejeiction. what if i take the risks and not get what i want? Am I worth anything? Am I? Am I? Am I? I absolutely need therapy. I do. I really need therapy. I’m a thousand kilometers away from home but all i wish is that I was in my therapy session getting stuff out of my chest. Please hear me out. Please help me pleasehelpmepleasehelpmepleasehelpme. I want to feel worth something. I want to be happy. I want to feel attractive. Why cant i feel like im worth something? Why? Why? Why cant i do anything right? Why am i such a terrible piece of TRASH? Why am i such an awful human being? WHY CAN I BE FUCKING HAPPY? ALL I FUCKING WANT IS TO BE HAPPY? WHY CANT I GET HAPPINESS? WHY AM I SO FUCKING USELESS? WHY DO I FEEL THIS EMPTYNESS INSIDE MYSELF? WHY DO THE ANTIDEPRESSANTS NOT WORK? WHY CANT I FUCKING SLEEP? Edited April 22, 2018 by Nobody Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nobody Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 WE GOT TWENTY DUDES HERE ONE OF THEM IS A GOOGLE BOT BUT WHATEVER google bots are the best dudes Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lance Masayoshi Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 I thought you didn't like my posts So why are you talking to me? Are you really gonna play, "I'm such a bitch" card with me? WE GOT TWENTY DUDES HERE ONE OF THEM IS A GOOGLE BOT BUT WHATEVER ain't it just Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Makaze Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 I mean I did I still don't get it though haha woops Oh. What confused you? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starman Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 google bots are the best dudes I KNOW, BRUH RIGHT!?!?! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 I want to use tildes more Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PKLucas531 Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 ~~ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kinumi Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 Oh. What confused you? everything Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freohr Datia Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 My favourite pinks are the pinks like Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LuxSpes Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 I KNOW, BRUH RIGHT!?!?! I thought you hated bots Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PKLucas531 Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 double tilde is the best Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lance Masayoshi Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Breezy Kanzaki Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 No I am not You've stated before you dislike me/ my posts And yet you still respond to me Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PKLucas531 Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 My favourite pinks are the pinks like woah that's like an even more faded/softer pink than I prefer that's impressive Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nobody Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 I want to use tildes more learn portuguese Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starman Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 I thought you hated bots I DO BUT IM IN A MOOD THAT I JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freohr Datia Posted November 17, 2014 Share Posted November 17, 2014 My favourite pinks are the pinks like http://puu.sh/cU0tf.png One of my current dream dresses btw ;~~~; Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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